Eros Talks with Nicole Daedone: On Cancelled: A Conversation

I'm a seasoned writer and business consultant, splitting my time between my writing career and running The Horus Group, a boutique consulting firm. With over two decades of experience as a ghostwriter and editor, I've had the privilege of working with a diverse clientele, including heads of state, congressional members, presidential candidates, and senior business executives. As a Washington, DC native, I attended Columbia University on a journalism scholarship from the Washington Post, which helped shape my career path.

I specialize in following it where not many dare to tread. I want to know life biblically, the way a man knows a woman (or other configurations of such). I want to know the water by getting wet. Theory, commandments, concepts leave me empty, and not the good kind of emptiness. My driving question is, “Is that true?” Is it wholly true? Where and how is it true? For whom is it true and why? Can it withstand the test of time? Is it true for me as a woman? The last one has taken me off many a beaten path. Givens are often no longer givens when I ask this question. The world turns upside down. My two guiding principles are first, the idea that “I’ve come only for this.” Whatever is presented before me is mine to puzzle, to play, to explore and, finally, to love. Love leads me to my second guiding principle, how I explore, which is to ask, “Can I love this? Can I love even this?” Who is the “I” who is loving in this moment? What does love look like here? Does it require a peaceful approach, approval, power, some good, old-fashioned wrath? And then, what is “this?” I must leave who I believe myself to be to answer this question—to know and love what this is on its terms and not on mine. As a free woman I want all things to be free, liberated from any ideas I would impose on them. My work remains what it once and always was: to turn poison into medicine and make it available to those who want it.

Juda S. Engelmayer is president of HeraldPR, a full service public relations and crisis communications firm based in New York. He is a PR and media professional with over 25 years of experience helping clients build and protect their names and brands. Juda Engelmeyer is a famed crisis publicist out of New York City representing the highest profile clients in the last five years specializing in MeToo cases

Brian Mulvaney was the chief strategist of Crossfit for 20 years and helped it grow from 0 to 15,000 gyms worldwide. His passion is establishing the cultural and practical conditions under which founding visions can come to full fruition.